Early into my relationship with my NE (narcissistic ex) I knew something wasn’t right, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. Looking back, I would’ve needed thousands of fingers to put on all the things that were happening and a lot more time to piece it all together. It took years for me to finally realize that there was no amount of love I could give to evoke change in him. No book I could read would give me the solution. Nothing I could change about myself would cause him to see the err in his ways. There is no special formula. People like him don’t typically change, and it’s not my burden to carry any longer. I had to learn that the hard way. I’ve exhausted countless hours researching anti social personality disorders. I’m a part of several support groups for Narcissistic abuse recovery. I’ve been in counseling. All have provided a catalyst for healing. I’m not a professional, so I can’t diagnose, but if the shoe fits…I’m telling my story because I deserve to speak the truth, and I hope it helps others.
Here’s a crash course on Narcissistic Personality Disorder: http://outofthefog.website/personality-disorders-1/2015/12/6/narcissistic-personality-disorder-npd